my disappearance

 hi space cadets!  its captain carebear here reporting from my little corner of the universe <3

i know, i know… it has been two weeks since my last transmission BUT i have my reasons that i will share now.  first, i am moving into my new apartment on saturday for my senior year of college!  wow so exciting, i know.  if you have ever moved, you know that with the excitement comes stress and anxiety.  I have spent the last two weeks shopping for back to school stuff, hunting for apartment decorations, scheduling appointments, and handling the waves of sadness about leaving my family and finishing this chapter of my life.

I have really struggled with feeling like i am running out of time in so many ways.  feeling like i am running out of time to find decorations for my apartment.  running out of time to be with my family before i move.  running out of time to get my life together before graduation. running out of time to be young. my hometown is 4 hours from where I am moving back to for college so its been really stressful trying to squeeze all the things i have been putting off into one week.

anyways enough with the excuses, from now on correspondence will be much more frequent because i finally have my life in order and have the time to sit down and share my thoughts with you all.  what helped combat my stress and anxiety is remembering that i am still young, too young to settle in one place forever and while returning to my hometown in the summer is comforting, it also is time to move on and return to school, return to my future rather than settling for my past.

well, back to the future i go, and you're all coming with me for the ride :)

until next time space cadets

-captain carebear